She purred in return, running to him and curling her body around him. It was true, she still loved him, but her heart belonged with Patchwhisker and she was terrified of what would happen when Patchpaw found out.
"I thought he loved me." She said quietly. "Patchwhisker. But he doesn't. He told me he did, but he still chooses someone else. I don't know what to think anymore." Her tail drooped. "He won't listen to me. I thought he was understanding - he isn't. He talks to me and then shuts me out." She shook her head. "And all the while the clan expects me to lead. I don't care about leading. I...I love him, Patchpaw. Like I loved you." She hated to word it like this, to make it sound like she didn't love him anymore. "I mean, I still love you, too, but I..."
"Cloudstar, it's alright." He nodded to her, licking her ear. "Before you I thought I love Nightstar...but I didn't I loved you. It took me awhile to notice, though. When Miststar sisn't let me in StormClan, I was so...desperate. But Harestar took us in, and you came" He looked at her in something like deep thought. "The one you should truly love, Cloudstar, is the one that's always there for you..."
She shook her head. "I know how it feels to be in love. I'm not an apprentice that has a bit of a crush - I love him, Patchpaw. He just doesn't understand that. There might be others, in the future. But I'll never be able to give them my whole heart, because he already has part of it."
She woke up with a start. Who does he mean? Why is everyone telling me I don't love Patchwhisker? I know how I feel for him - it's the same as it was for Patchpaw. I'll allways be rejected, no matter who claims to love me. Because there's always someone better. She pulled herself up, and bounded out of camp.
Amberfrost entered the den and froze. Cloudstar's scent and Patchpaw's scent lingered, but they were no-where to be seen. The young warrior rushed back out.
Cloudstar curled up in her den, her heart slowing. No matter what happened now, Amberfrost was her deputy. I made the right choice. She has courage, spirit and determination, and she will be a great leader of Cloudclan.
Cloudstar curled up in her den and glanced around. She'd have to face her dream sometime, but she was reluctant to close her eyes. That made it two nights ina row she had not slept.
She shrugged. "There's just too much going on at the moment. Owl, Pachwhisker, And then the dream..." She trailed off. "It is time you learnt who I really am." She waved her tail. "I was born, I think, on the streets. I have no idea who my father was or if he is still alive. I don't care. He left my mother and I would not welcome him into this Clan. My mother had other kits, my sublings, but it was winter and they died. We were caught by twolegs, who abused my mother. One day she told me to run and went wild. I was not even six moons, and I was too afraid. I never saw her again - they killed her. And it was for nothing becaue I was too afraid." She took a deep breath. "They threw m out one day and I never went back. I travelled from place to place. Then I stayed near this forest, with the other strays and kittypets. 6ou know the rest." She sighed. "I don't know why I didn't tell someone before... no one ever asked and I thought I would be able to hide it. But theres no denying it. was a coward and my mother died for a worthless cause." She put her head on her paws.
Cloudstar gestured for him to sit as she took her seat. "I will probably be travelling to Moon River soon, and while I'm gone I need you to keep an eye on Owlpaw - don't stalk him or follow him everywhere, but when he is in camp make sure he is taking the right prey, see what he is like to others. See what he knows,make friends with him. Gain his trust. Understand? It's best if Amberfrost doesn't know... it will make it more convincing if everyone thinks you are just being friendly rather than trying to get information out of him. Oh, and talking of Amberfrost..." She smiled. "As her Mother, I know she wouldn't want me to interfere with what you two have. I won't. Just let me say this: think about your future together, because she quite clearly adores you, and you need to sieze your chance before it's too late. That's all I will say."Before she ends up like me, the person she loves rejecting her. Don't let that happen to her or someone will pay.
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~Vixen~: I'm down for a revival.
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||Dawn||: Oh yeah so like archiving all the old ones and doing new ones?
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~Coldeh~: Never mind. Found it~ XD
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Coal: I know this is ded now, but looking back on this brings back memories. (this Coldfrost/star btw - aka Hurricane on HL) I have no idea what email/pass I used for my old account but I miss RPing with yall.
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тнεмαтιc™: I need to open up another Kik, I forgot my old one...
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~Vixen~: Okay so I made my kik account. My username is Vixen919
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